July 5, 2015 ~ Cheese Sandwich: That Doesn't Feel Good

I try to feed myself and my kids as many whole foods as possible.  Minimally processed is also a goal.  I don't usually have American cheese singles in my refrigerator.

"What is she talking about?!?!"

I promise, there's a point.

A couple of weeks ago a wrote about a BBQ that we had here with MSTBE and his best friend, who was in town for a long weekend.  MSTBE brought some food over and left some American cheese singles.  They've been sitting on my shelf, untouched for two weeks.  I don't know why I haven't thrown them away but tonight I wish that I had.

When MSTBE and I were getting serious, I was ridiculously into the movie "Love & Sex."  There's a conversation in the movie between the two main characters when they are courting about whether it's possible to love the same person for the rest of your life.  John Favreau's character says that it's probably human nature to stop saying "I Love You," it becomes like saying, "cheese sandwich."  It ends up being the way that the couple says they love each other and, spoiler alert, after they break up and get back together, it comes back in the cutest way.  Here's the 45 second snip of the movie.  And now that I've watched that again, I think I'm going to obsess over the movie and watch it over and over again every time that I have the opportunity.  If you haven't seen it, I highly recommend it.  I'm not much of an Indie movie lover but this one is an exception.

Ok, I definitely went off on a bit of a tangent there.  Back to the point.  I mentioned this part of the movie to MSTBE and possibly even had him watch it way back when we were dating.  The cheese sandwich thing became a small part of our "I Love You's" but it wasn't a daily thing by any means.  In fact, when we got married it had gone by the wayside.  But on our wedding day when I walked into the bride's changing room to get ready, there waiting for me was a tray of cheese sandwiches.  When I saw them, I cried tears of happiness.

How in the world did I get here?  How did this happen?  How does a couple go from such a sweet, loving, thoughtful gesture to the place that we're at now?  It's unfathomable.  As I sit here with tears rolling down my cheeks, months after having accepted that this is the best thing for everybody and truly believing it, I'm still shocked.  I hadn't thought about that moment in a very long time and it doesn't feel good to be reminded of it.